Another setback.

It's looking more & more likely that I'll have to postpone my  private consultation. 
I am absolutely gutted!
I went to the doctors today to remind them that I still haven't had the mra that was requested in May & that I still haven't heard anything about the mri I was supposed to have had within 2 weeks of going into hospital (on the 2nd July). So that's 2 scans that I've heard nothing about. 2 more ways in which I've been messed around.
Turns out both of them, despite being for different symptoms, are both to look at similar or even the same area of my head/neck. That's quite scary & yet promising at the same time.
So the nurse practitioner (I prefer seeing her now instead of the doctor, she's sympathetic) said she'll chase it up after surgery today & that they can request a scan to be done by a certain date, but 1 week is a bit tight.
The results of these scans will probably be needed for the consultation & so if I don't have them done, it's more than likely that when I get there, I'll just be told to have them done then go back. A complete waste of time, money, petrol, energy.
I've been counting down the days, & now this. I'll just have to wait & see after surgery.
I came out of the doctors & cried, a lot. My emotions are all over the place.
Then this afternoon I had a funny turn, luckily Sean is actually off sick himself so came to my rescue.
I was sitting at the table when my right side went, I couldn't even open my eyes & could barely lift my head. I needed to get comfy, but didn't have the energy to move.
Sean helped me up & supported me into the living room, while I was crying & exhausted.
After a nap & big cuddles, I'm feeling much better & looking forward to a possible visit & catch up with one of my friends this evening. I love seeing my friends because even though I don't really get out properly with them atm & I feel bad that they usually come to me, it's nice to have a catch up & laugh.

A part of me is really enjoying blogging because it's nice to get stuff off my chest, but at the same time, I'm usually quite a closed person to the point that even close friends have been shocked at some of what they've read- I keep quite a lot to myself, so knowing I have people all over the world reading my posts, freaks me out a bit if I'm honest.
Hello to you all though, it intrigues me that I've had so many views & people are actually interested in my little life haha xxx